[Masterminor]

My mother is dragging me along on a family road trip to Rhode Island. We leave tomorrow night and I must say, I want to cry. I do not like travelling, at all. When I get older I'm gonna move out and live in that same house till I die cuz I'm just so sick of travelling. I get motion sickness and antsy from sitting for so long. I have severe anxiety and no one cares. Would any FC members like to help me through this grueling journey? That is of course assuming I have a cellphone signal.

[roullie666]

I have severe anxiety and no one cares.

Why think too much? you are with your family.

grueling journey?

i think that's going to be fun.

[Masterminor]

Fun for you maybe. My family is not even a family. I live with my mother and sister, those are the only two in the house actually related to me. On top of that there's my mother's boyfriend (one of them) and his two daughters. My mother likes to cheat on him a lot with other men, but they both cheat and use it against each other. Every time they go out to a bar they come home and argue at the top of their voices, regardless of 4 sleeping people in the house, they even did it on school nights before summer was here. The boyfriend also loves to show use evidence from his phone of the guys my mother has been texting, even showing us pictures and whatnot. Imagine being trapped in a car for five days unable to escape the people who do THAT on a regular basis.

Thank god we're not going anymore. A similar situation happened not long ago but this time the boyfriend was escorted by the police to stay in a hotel somewhere. They didn't arrest him, they don't have to. He didn't even do anything but my mother told police that he was way more aggressive then he actually was. So the trip is cancelled.

So don't tell me how something is going to be "fun" God I wish I was adopted, at least then I wouldn't actually be related to crazy. The sad part is, this current living situation is my best option.

[vathsala]

From your point of view what you say and think is right. Tell your mom that her activities are sickening and u can not stand it so not to force you to accompany her anywhere but leave you alone .

[WorkAtHomeGal]

There is a lot of things people don't understand about anxiety. I have it pretty bad to the point it sometimes affects my work in social situations. For instance I previously worked at a call center and when I couldn't take it I would leave my work station and lock myself in the bathroom doing breathing exercises. I stayed there as long as I could but as soon as my online earnings took off I was gone.

I grew up watching my father constantly cheat, domestic violence, drugs, everything... I think this plays part in who I am now because there was a lot we were not allowed to do. It turned me into quite a loner. I don't think I would want to be in a car with those people either.

[shadypro]

You have to endure it , everyone have his own hell , if you can't stand them that much just wait till you can leave the house and then do it. Problem solved.

[Torre246]

I think the idea that you "push through" anxiety is complete and utter bullcrap. There are big issues in how society perceives mental illness, and the best way to combat it is being open and honest about it, raising awareness. With that said, your issues are much larger and I wish you the best in getting away from it. I was in a similar situation with emotional abuse and manipulation, falling into a deep depression. I moved out at 16 to get away, and it took a while to move past it all, but it was worth it.

[zanjecare]

I want to go becouse i didnt want to go.

[Verinha87]

Hello oh yeah friend if you have net signal on the trip will spoken here in the forum and you destract you is a good option for you distract